| We'd laugh if we were younger. |
[May. 14th, 2007|09:49 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | Photocorners - The Lovely Feathers | ] |
I think my internet was trying to tell me not to update this dumb thing. When I tried the first time, it "unexpectedly quit."
( this looked fun )
My mom bought me an old lady car. It's a Grand Marquis. I'm afraid to drive it cause it's so damn wide. |
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| This could be the very minute I'm aware I'm alive. |
[Aug. 28th, 2006|01:16 pm] |
I miss you in my living room.
Yes, you. |
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| Close your eyes, I'm turning on the light. |
[Aug. 19th, 2006|02:50 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Trinity. | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | lost? | ] |
| [ | music |
| | ani difranco - she says | ] |
I finally found it. Too late to remind you, though. |
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| Camera obscura |
[Aug. 3rd, 2006|12:26 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  jet lag. | ] |
| [ | music |
| | i need new music i'm sick of all of mine. anyone? | ] |
More knowledge gained in Hungary and Croatia.
Good hygiene is optional.
Trains are not as fun as they look.
Eastern Europeans have the best bone structure ever.
Waiters can be etremely elusive.
Communism is now a joke. Sort of.
There's no such thing as a free toilet.
Mountains, beaches and forests come together beautifully.
Don't ask what's in it. Just eat it.
The concept of waiting in line has not yet reached Croatia.
Germans make me feel quite ugly. I hate them all.
Gelatos never get old.
Italian shoes? Yes, please.
So yeah I'm home. Blah. But I missed everyone and my dog and my bed.
Now I have to wash my clothes and pack them all again. |
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| Well I wish I was a fisherman tumbling on the sea |
[Jul. 26th, 2006|03:44 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | vis | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  confused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | bad heavy metal | ] |
You know those places that you see on postcards with the white stone beaches and the perfectly clear aqua water and you think must be terribly photoshopped?
Yeah, well, they're real.
http://www.photocroatia.com/thumball/hvar.php
Yesterday I rode at the very front of a boat while it dipped in and out of the water. I got wet and I got tanned and I can't remember being happier than I've been with nothing but miles of perfect blue water on every side.
I may just stay a pirate and never come home. |
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| The worst is over, you can have the best of me |
[Jul. 20th, 2006|09:55 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Dubrovnik | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  hot | ] |
| [ | music |
| | croatian rap | ] |
Things I've learned in Hungary and Croatia (in brief):
I could eat cold fruit soup for the rest of my life.
Catherine Zeta-Jones is just as gorgeous in person.
Croatians eat a lot of ice cream. A LOT.
Scars from the war are everywhere.
Air conditioning is an unnecessary luxury.
All you really need to know is "hvala"
Old, naked fat people have no shame.
The postal service is entirely hit or miss. I wrote some of you. Good luck.
There are a million ways to flush a toilet. |
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| I've got a hunger twisting my stomach into knots. |
[Jul. 9th, 2006|11:15 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  i hate flying | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sound of Settling | ] |
So I'm in Eastern Europe. Don't text me cause they'll charge me. No wait, text me your address before 4PM tomorrow (July 10) and I'll send you a postcard or something from somewhere.
And any souvenir requests? I don't know what they sell in Croatia.
I'll be back sometime in August. There are crack cookies galore at my house if you're feeling like you miss my baking. |
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| And I don't know if I've ever been really loved by a hand that's touched me. |
[Jul. 1st, 2006|10:29 pm] |
Today was one of the worst days I've had in a really long time.
We had to put Olive to sleep. She couldn't eat and could barely walk and we just decided that we didn't want to watch her like that anymore. None of us have slept well for the past few weeks cause we kept expecting to wake up and find her dead. So I guess we'll sleep well tonight.
I haven't cried like this for a while. I liked my dog so much more than any guy.
The rain was nice. I was sorry it stopped.
My cousin is here and she watches everything I do. I freaked out today cause I felt so claustrophobic in my house. I want to be alone. I want to go for a walk right now but my parents won't let me go alone. I might get kidnapped.
I didn't know what to do with myself after Olive died today so I cleaned out my closet. It took like four hours. I got rid of almost everything in it. I found a cool hippy hat that makes me feel secure when I'm wearing it and I found my blanket that I carried around everywhere until I was about six. The blanket made me cry. And finding all of the things that my parents bought me that I didn't appreciate. I feel so undeserving of anyone's affection, even the slightest bit, let alone everything my parents do for me. I'm not good enough for it.
I want to take my blanket and go curl up and fall asleep in my dad's lap. I don't want to grow up or go to college.
Chris said I need a hug that lasts for a week. He's getting drunk and writing me a song. I guess that will do.
I can't believe I just used this fucking LJ to actually write about something. Someone shoot me. |
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| In ceremonies of the horsemen, even the pawn must hold a grudge. |
[Jun. 18th, 2006|09:44 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Expresso | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  hungry | ] |
| [ | music |
| | no, family guy. i'm not watching. | ] |
The internet is out at my home again. Fuck you, Time Warner, fuck you.
Kate's Putrid List
1. I am at Expresso drinking an iced kiwi pear tea. Cause that is all I ever order here.
2. Making eye contact with everyone I pass when I walk.
3. Booooooooooooomer
4. BOOOOOOOOOOMER
5. Fresh juice. People don't make their own juice enough anymore. I want a juicer.
6. Doing NOTHING. Ugh.
7. Adult Swim. Muhahahaha.
8. Cheap watery beer
9. Neon lights at night and how they blur when you drive really fast.
10. I need a new icon. But I'm just going to think about it and not do anything.
11. Boomer, I felt really good most of today. I really want to feed people.
12. Today I watched Sex and the City on HBO for the first time. I always watch the syndicated episodes on the WB or TNT. My God, it's raunchy. I like it.
13. Striped shirts
14. Breaking promises to myself
15. I want chocolate reeeeeeeeally badly right now. Oh the urge is so strong.
16. Where's Waldo
17. Where's Waldo?
18. That first one was in reference to the series, the second was an open-ended question. Feel free to respond.
19. So hopeful. So so hopeful. I mean, that's all it ever is, and it's fleeting, but sometimes it's nice. Only I can't decide if the high is worth the low.
20. I've started writing letters again.
21. Some knife company called me today wanting me to sell stuff for them. I have a job, but I made them give me their whole speech before turning them down. Ha I'm a bitch.
22. Overly posessive people
23. Ah Celina that thing that you just asked me about...I don't know what to do...I'm trying to not do anything but I want to and I don't know what to do let's go to San Antonio right now please please please
24. Cory Gorrondona
25. Green tea makes me have to pee
26. Inadvertent rhymes
27. I have Jacqui's head on my boobs right now.
28. Italian bread salad.
29. Ha the sign on the bathroom door at Expresso says "One person at a time. Thanks."
30. At times in my life the only place I have been happy is when I am on stage.
31. I think the green light is out.
I'll let you be in my dreams if I can be in yours. |
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| You can be closed-minded if you have open arms |
[Jun. 17th, 2006|12:22 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  frustrated | ] |
I swear, the kids I work with at the camp are more mature than half of the people I know from high school. Don't worry, that is probably not in reference to you.
Kate's Putrid List
1. So the show today went surprisingly well. Made a lot of money. Only two more weeks!
2. Lasagne
3. HEB plus early tomorrow morning! It's sad when that becomes an outing.
4. I like the smell of gasoline.
5. On Sunday I'm going to the Hill Country to steal massive pieces granite from quarrys and find fossils.
6. Doing other people's dishes.
7. Raaj. I'll try to take a picture of him. You will laugh.
8. The show House. I watched it for the first time tonight, and by Jove, it's a hoot.
9. Is Hugh Laurie British? Cause if he's not, he should be.
10. Fuckloads of M&Ms
11. Gaaaaaaaarrrlic
12. Hmm. The bulletins on my Myspace are all screwy. Not that that impacts my life at all ahem.
13. The bulk of my frustration at the moment is stemming from Michael George. He started IMing me saying "somebody fucking kill me" repeatedly and in all capitals. I do not like people who beat around the bush. I would prefer for him to be like, "so here is why I am frustrated" instead of ranting like a child. A profane child. I put up an away message that read "oh the melodrama" in reference to a totally separate and isolated incident and he freaked out and got mad at me. Because I don't understand.
14. Sometimes I prefer animals to people.
15. Givenchy cologne
16. The thought of eternity scares me to death. Not like heaven/hell and whatnot. It's more like the thought of what if your soul does live on? Forever? Then what? What if you get bored?
17. Ah see now I feel all queasy.
18. So puppies. Celina's is darling.
19. I decided today that when I'm all grown up and I get a dog, I want a great dane, a husky, a chocolate lab, or a german shepard. Or some mix of those. I want a big dog.
20. Sometimes I like my glasses.
21. I can't wait to leave the country forever ahhhhhhhhh
22. I saw Paul and his mom at HEB today. Awkward. I don't think she recognized me. And I didn't stop to chat.
23. My cousin is coming to stay with us for several weeks. She's 11 and really cool.
24. Today after the show, several kids were crying because their parents didn't come. I felt so bad for them. Like, what do you tell a seven year old who's sobbing because his parents promised they'd be there and they never came? I gave them big hugs and told them that something important must have come up, then I held their hands and we ate cookies together. My parents have never missed anything that I've done. They were both there today taking pictures, and I didn't even do anything.
25. Boomer, I promise I'll see you someday soon and I'll explain everything and try to make it better.
26. Peanut Butter
27. I haven't slept so comfortably as I did that time.
"If I leave here without understanding you, the world will see you as a monster. Always. And I don't want that." |
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| I always catch the clock it's 11:11 and now you want to talk |
[Jun. 12th, 2006|04:46 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | not sure if i should have... | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Shooting Star - Bob Dylan | ] |
Kate's Putrid List
1. Lemon Curd
2. I got new mascara. Things like this amuse me.
3. Dirty Dancing is on tonight and I've never seen it. I should watch it.
4. I have to put on a play with the kids at camp by Friday and I have no idea how to do that and I'm stressing out. At least I only work 4 hours a day.
5. Joan Rivers
6. I'm watching Parental Control on MTV. I can't believe I've stooped to this level.
7. The beach at the Blue Ghost Landing the other night was so pretty. Everyone kept complaining about the sand and the wind, but I loved it. I love the way it smells.
8. Smoking. I still hate the way cigarettes smell.
9. I was at Expresso yesterday and I had a lovely conversation with Mr. Boldin. And an iced kiwi pear tea, only thing I ever get there.
10. Its official. I leave for Croatia and Hungary in July. Good luck getting me to come back.
11. Celina and I are the best car dancers ever. EVER.
12. The horn, the nail drying, and the carla.
13. Motion City Soundtrack
14. Frozen corn
15. The party at Chris and Holden's was alright. Got pretty mad at one point and shut myself in Chris's room, then I had to take care of Chris while he was throwing up. So, you know, I've had better parties. But I don't think I've had better drives.
16. The gentlemen in the white truck.
17. My awesome Spiderman shirt from the boys section at Target. The kids today loved it. They kept asking if I was Spiderman and I was like psh of course.
18. My apologies to everyone who has asked to spend time with me lately and I've been busy/sleeping/antisocial. I don't know what's been going on. I've just wanted to be alone.
19. Indian Food
20. Alyssa!
21. I hate shopping.
22. Jello shots. And all those damn honey roasted nuts.
23. Justin's girlfriend Lindsay. She's a doll.
24. So I've been meaning to go work out for the past two hours. But then I ate something and I was like alright, I'm too full to go now cause I'll get cramps. Then I got less full. So I ate again. This just isn't meant to be.
25. Best quotes from this weekend...
"Nuts! I love nuts!" (me, a tad too enthusiastically)
"Holden takes mad shits." (Chris)
"I'm the Juggernaut, bitch." (Chris)
"Then he just pulled out his uncircumcised black penis." (Alyssa's friend Brianna)
"I'd slap that ass." (Chris, while intoxicated, in reference to me)
Celina, while looking out through the peephole: I can't see anything!
Random black guys outside: It's cause we black!
"I need something long and sticky...hmm..." (me)
"It says Oprah on crayons now." (Max)
26. The little girl down the street is having a birthday party with ponies. I've never had a pony party. Friends, take note: next year I want ponies.
27. I want to drive out to somewhere where I can see the stars and drink hot chocolate and listen to Bob Dylan and make up constellations.
I'm the you, and you're the me.
And you tell me that it's over
Wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clover
And you're restless and I'm naked
You've got to get out
You can't stand to see me shaking..no
Could you let me go?
I didn't think so. |
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[Jun. 11th, 2006|05:52 pm] |
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My dog is dying. |
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| Moral relativism (regarding cheating) |
[Jun. 8th, 2006|04:56 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | nah, just coffee grinders | ] |
My internet is down right now, so I'm at Agua Java. Drinkin a chai latte. Life is pretty good.
Kate's Putrid List
1. I started work at the Garcia Center with the kiddies. I'm teaching this year instead of just helping and it was scary at first, but the kids are actually really great. They're mostly scholarship kids from the neighborhood who can't afford the art museum camp and I was kind of afriad the older ones might shank me, but they're really cool.
2. There's this one random dude who's supposed to be helping us for community service, but I think he's like retarded or something. He's worse than the little kids and he sits around with these spikes from a horseshoes game in his hands like he's ready to impale someone at any second. The helpers say I'm mean cause I make fun of him openly.
3. Michael George pouring his soul out to me.
4. Frozen starfish
5. The way coffee smells, but not the way it tastes.
6. So this weekend, Celina and I are going to San Antonio for Chris and Holden's housewarming party. If you're invited and you want to come up and split the gas with us, let me know. Like call me or text me or something, cause I probably won't check this, as my internet is down.
7. Kinesis
8. Bromilliads
9. Ok, so like everyone but me probably knew this, but the isLove generator thingy that so many of us have been doing....it gets the stuff from your interests in your profile. See I was dumbfounded as to how everything it said was always something that I did indeed love. Then it said Waking Ned Devine is love and I was like DAMN that is just too crazy. So yeah, slightly dissapointed and feeling very dumb.
10. CHERRIES!
11. Michelle thinks I should work out in my Gladiator shoes, because it would be more hardcore.
12. I found Jake. We will be married, never you fear.
13. So I've been going to the gym so much lately that i've read all the magazines. Yesterday I had to resort to the Sports Illustrated Swimsuit Edition (I'm not gonna lie, those girls are hot) and Cosmo in Spanish (I do not speak a word).
14. Socks just don't look good with suits or slacks. Any color. I mean, suits don't look good without socks either, though. Men's ankles should just not be seen.
15. I set my alarm on the radio setting and this morning I woke up to George Bush speaking about that terrorist. I thought I was having a nightmare.
16. Joel. Ah I miss him.
17. Ok the kids at the camp have the most Mexican names and I can't say some of them!!!!
18. Vanilla. Like in cooking.
19. Last night my dad and RaMina and I rented "The Dark." It was confusing and stupid.
20. The day before I rented "The Squid and the Whale." Most awkard movie ever. So glad I was watching it alone. But very good.
21. There are a shitload of hot guys at Trinity.
22. I dug that t-shirt out of the back of my closet, because I am no longer too angry to wear it. I mean, I haven't been for a while, but I forgot about it. I'm glad I remembered. I like that shirt.
23. I need some Amaretto.
24. Yesterday my mom was at HEB and she had to wait in line for like 20 minutes (cause that's just how it always is there when it's busy) but she threw and fit and yelled at the manager, so he opened up a new lane just for her and checked her out, then helped her to the car with her bags. So glad I wasn't there.
In the end, lest what is most important remain unsaid: from such abysses, from such severe sickness, also from the sickness of severe suspicion, one returns newborn, having shed one's skin, more ticklish and malicious, with a more delicate taste for joy, with a tenderer tongue for all good things, with merrier senses, with a second dangerous innocence in joy, more childlike and yet a hundred times subtler than one has ever been before. |
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| I'm a theif. |
[Jun. 5th, 2006|10:16 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | fucking pissed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | boom boom | ] |
| | | | | | | | guitar players are love |
| | | | | | | | the democratic party is love |
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| Can you teach me how to dance real slow? |
[Jun. 3rd, 2006|07:43 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  figuring out what to do... | ] |
Some Sunny Day (film I was in this summer) will be shown tonight on KEDT (channel 9) at 10:00 on a show called The Territory. Actually, it's not the whole movie, just scenes and commentary by the director and the director of another film. So yes, watch, because I don't know when/if I'll get a copy. |
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| Tell me what will resound. |
[May. 30th, 2006|11:11 pm] |
Ty told me that the sand in hourglasses comes from factories, not special hourglass beaches. As part of my stance against growing up, I refuse to believe him.
Kate's Putrid List
1. Conferences with a bunch of foreign people and disappointing food.
2. I have smell associations like you wouldn't believe. Like this one sort of face scrub makes me nostalgic.
3. Michael George
4. I got up and watched the sunrise on the causeway this morning, but it was too cloudy. Then I went for a run in Violet Andrews Park. I will go tomorrow too.
5. Swinging. Like on swingsets, not in reference to dating.
6. Tentative bonfire friday. Keep asking me about it....
7. So my mom was having a really shitty day today (it was her first day back at work for summerschool) so I surprised her with carrot cake in class and I washed and vacuumed the car.
8. Leopard print
9. I am still eating pita bread from this weekend
10. Massive sunflowers, like in France.
11. My dad said he'd send me somewhere for a graduation present. Where should I go?
12. Feeding homeless people on Leopard at 10pm is so fulfilling and terrifying at the same time.
13. We really don't seem to have that many homeless people in Corpus.
14. The Sex and the City gang
15. Russian poets
16. I need to get to the beach sometime in the near future. I need to be negro again.
17. Sherry is the most tactful and sneaky person ever and I love it.
18. CAR PAINT and sort of getting caught!
19. Role Playing. Ha. Oh Lord.
20. People who set their myspace profile age at 14 so it's private. For some reason that pisses me off.
21. Sleep paralysis is the most terrifying thing ever.
22. I want to rent The Squid and the Whale and watch it manana. Any takers?
23. The cut
24. I can't relax. I still feel like I have things hanging over me that need to get done.
25. God, I'm persistent. Oh just wait.
Pity is not your forte.
Calmly you ache up there
pinned aloft in your crow's nest,
my speechless pirate!
You take it all for granted
and when I look you back
it's with a starlike eye
shooting its cold and egotistical spear
where it can so least damage.
Breathe deep! No hurt, no pardon
out here in the cold with you,
you with your back to the wall. |
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| Grammarotics |
[May. 29th, 2006|11:55 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  i'm tired of this mouse | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Slow Down - New Moscow | ] |
The angle of delight is best
achieved while rubbing
the pluperfect button
in tiny syllabic circles
while the glottal stop needs
firm accentual strokes
for copulative conjunction
to occur. The placement
of the preterite tense
at the entrance
of a lubricated sentence
assures the inevitable
apostrophe. However,
if the apostrophe occurs
prematurely the result
is then a dangling
modifier, also
commonly known as
a pathetic fallacy. |
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| I will stand against the ruins and I will scream your name out loud |
[May. 24th, 2006|04:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | I am a transylvanian | ] |
If I could find a yellow brick road, I'd hightail it out to Oz.
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[May. 24th, 2006|09:59 pm] |
Chica boom boom bang bang.
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| Far from the twisted reach of crazy sorrow |
[May. 22nd, 2006|10:39 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | the hardest thought of the day | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Bob Dylan - Shelter From the Storm | ] |
Finals all this week, but I only have to take one. Government. I can't wait to be finished. So many people keep talking about how much they're going to miss high school. I only miss it when I look at pictures of people being silly and getting away with all sorts of crazy things because they're in high school and it's allowed when one is young and naive. I think I'm very alright with it ending.
Kate's Putrid List
1. Bob Dylan
2. Coach Hines said he wouldn't give a final in Psychology if I brought food. So I'm baking tomorrow.
3. Boooooooooooooooomer
4. The Lion King in San Ant @ The Majestic!!!! 'Twas brilliant!
5. I wish I was in Europe right now. Sometimes I wonder if there's anything here I'm staying for.
6. Renaissance, the antique store.
7. Come see the show at Wynn Seale tomorrow night! Jamy, Boomer, Max, and Molly are in it! 7:00!
8. Ok, so I went to Portland at sunrise on Sunday to write an essay in the Violet something or other park. I sat on a bench and typed it as the sun was coming up over the water and it was so lovely. Then this weird weird fellow with a dog came over and started talking to me telling me about how aliens exist and he's seen them cause he's in the military and all he really wants to do is sit in a hot tub in Mexico and drink margaritas all day with his dog, Tequila. He was a trip.
9. Yellow and red together
10. Today, someone told me that I'm the only real person who she's ever seen who can pull off aviators really well. :)
11. Bowling
12. Temporary tattoos
13. Have you ever tried counting the stars? I've tried but I never get much past 800. I need to get away from the lights.
14. T.S. Eliot
15. Getting mail
16. Giving cakes to freaky ass drunk homeless people at midnight on Leopard street, who don't really want cakes, but do want shoes apparently.
17. Yearbooks
18. We never got to finish Star Wars in English! What shall I do?!?!
19. Tonight we had the top ten banquet for CCISD. It was so long and boring. I made sculptures out of butter. I sent Chris and Boomer pictures too. They were quite nice.
20. Alex. Every time he sees me in the halls he hugs me and the scent of Abercrombie os overwhelming. But he cracks me up, so I forgive him.
21. Guiding Eyes for the Blind. If you want to get me something for graduation, give me money to send to them.
22. I got a check from Mr. Whitehead in the mail today. Random, no?
23. Peanut Butter
24. So all the seniors cried at Pachucco's but me. Cause I apparently don't have a soul.
25. I give up, but I dont surrender. Not like you'd think I would. If you know me at all, you know that I wouldn't make myself weak, merely unavailable. I apologize for any inconvenience.
26. Pray for a thunderstorm.
Drink to me only with thine eyes,
And I will pledge with mine;
Or leave a kiss but in the cup,
And I'll not ask for wine. |
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